Carpe Di Blog!

Nor do people 

So, yesterday's doctor's appointment was interesting. I have never had a doctor have tears in her eyes and ask if I wanted her to tell me the news or wanted to wait until tomorrow and have the neurologist tell me. I am a "let's rip the Band-Aid off the hairy chest so we can heal" kind of guy so I got the news. Actually, she did that two separate times with two sets of bad news. The news was not bad as I had anticipated based on her set-ups. Maybe that was her tricky tactic? I am not going to go into great detail about what was discussed as many things are still being checked. I do know that I know my body very well and there is no expiration date anywhere visible so I don't plan to be cashing my chips in any time soon. Today at 1300 I will be visiting the neurologist and maybe I will know more after that. My guess is that he will find nothing (yes, that was an "I have no brain" joke). It seems that this is the "what comes around goes around" part of my partnership with Cha Cha. I am glad I was so supportive with her maladies at the end of 2014. I will admit that I am a bit nervous and trepidatious but whatever happens is meant to happen. There are a few more things I have to do after the neurologist too but those will probably have to be next week. It will probably be a busy couple of weeks in my world.

I may start living life like there is tomorrow a bit more. Please do not read into that if it occurs because I know tomorrow will be here and I will probably be part of it. I am not going to rob a bank or anything like that but I might eat more cake and cookies or quit being nice to jerky people. I am a kind person by nature (and nurture) so I will probably still be tolerant of jack-asses but I may think more bad thoughts about them. I may also make more wise-cracks  - if that is possible. If you cannot entertain yourself what good are you to yourself? There are some changes I really do need to make. Ha, Bye Bye Miss American Pie just came on Pandora (the Cat Stevens station). I am not sure why I find that amusing but I do. Lately, I have been listening to the AC/DC, Pink and Black Eyed Peas stations mostly.

According to this film The Cubs are supposed to win The Series this year - gotta love fantasy

I kind of scammed you because I am writing these first three paragraphs last night (Tuesday). That is something I learned in all of those years writing for newspapers and magazines and television and radio and such. Just know that I will re-read them tomorrow (today now) to make sure my sentiments are still the same as they were when I wrote these thoughts last night.

It is 0703 now on Wednesday. I think I slept pretty well (with the assistance of a sleep-aid). I am super-duper-hyper aware of my body right now and don't know what is just indigestion and what may be something else. I know I had another small whatever this morning. This one started in my sternum so maybe it was just heartburn? I don't want to continue to talk about just this but, obviously, it is at the center of my brain and I am too addle-minded to mentally multi-task.

One of my favorite films is on HBO right now - Dances With Wolves. I even remember where I saw it and the circumstances behind me going to the now vanished St. Charles Mall to see it alone. This is easily in my top ten films of all time. I should make a definitive list in case my mind totally goes. I think I may own most, if not all, of my faves on video. Master and Commander: Far Side of the World, Gladiator, Dances with Wolves, Schindler's List, The Silence of the Lambs, Saving Private Ryan, Braveheart, The Godfather, Amadeus, To Kill a Mockingbird. Wow, that is nine films right there without even thinking (which makes me qualified). There may be some serious competition for the tenth spot. I really like The Dark Knight (Heath Ledger was amazing in that). If my mind does go I will be able to enjoy them for the first time all over again.

When I go see the neurologist later today I am going to stop at Best Buy and see about getting a few more things (studio mic and preview speakers) for the studio so we can get this damned podcast going again. It is so frustrating to be this close and not being able to record.

I am so very sick and tired of all of the politics on television, the radio, the interweb... I do not even listen. Politicians have always been liars but now they don't (or can't with the media as they are) hide it. A great percentage of politicians are bald-faced liars (I am not sure why most people say bold-faced but I believe that is incorrect). Both sides lie and it seems to be acceptable. It used to be car salesman had the number one reputation for fibs but politicians have passed them up by a lot. I just researched and bold-faced and bald-faced are both acceptable but bald-faced was the original phrase way back in the 1600s because almost every man had a beard in those days and it was quite daring (even audacious) to be clean-shaven.

I have to get a few things done before I go to see the neurologist. Ironically, I just has another "episode."  I had one at 0622 and now at 0810. Maybe I should track the times in a notebook to see how frequent they actually occur. I am starting to think that I am broken beyond repair. I will go see all of these specialists and see what they know. I think I might go lie down again for awhile. My neurology appointment is at 1300 so I have some time. I am feared that this is something that I will have to deal with the rest of my life though medication, being as it is these days, seems to be able to treat just about anything. I am sorry to be a broken record but I write what is on my mind and, of course, this is on my mind most of the time right now. Hopefully soon I will be a fixed record.

Thank you for stopping by. I appreciate you more than you can know. I am pretty sure I will blog again tomorrow and maybe I will have more news about what is going on with me to babble about. Maybe I am being cursed because I didn't always clean my plate when I was a kid - I was warned that this might happen. Have a great whatever day this is (Wednesday as it turns out). TTTT...MITM (out) TA!