Good Crabby or Bad Crabby?

I didn't think of it being Monday - it is my Wednesday

I am in a really crabby mood today. I usually equate these moods with my monthly cycle but that is usually at the end of each month. If it truly occurs every 28 days I suppose, eventually if my horrible math skills are correct, it would work its way up to being on the 19th day of the month. I think my mood is more just me being a baby and pouting because I am not getting my way. I think most people probably behave this way in their minds but I am just okay with admitting it sometimes.

Cha Cha goes in to Northwestern Hospital again tomorrow to have a consultation with the liver specialist. The consultation is at 1545 so I have decided not to go with her because of work. With all of the days I have taken off because of her initial hospitalizations, procedures, consultations, preps... I have depleted my days-off a great deal so I am being a bit miserly now. With me having to work until 0600 tomorrow morning and having to be back at 2200 tomorrow night it would be stupid for me to go. She has decided to take the train in to Chicago and catching a cab to and from the hospital. I have thought about riding the train in with her but I would still be pushing-it and risking safety of me and others at work by my sleepiness tomorrow night. The only reason that I am trying so hard to go with her is that she is thinking that she is going to receive bad news from her biopsy results and I want to be there for support. Not that she cannot handle whatever happens but I have an overly-developed sense of being a nurturer/comforter. Maybe I was Florence Nightingale in a past life.

Today is Martin Luther King Jr. Day in America. It may just be called Martin Luther King's Birthday but I will call it MLK Day! What an important man he was for America's history and progress. He literally gave his life to save so many lives and make America and the world realize what a mess we were in the the 1960's. The problems that existed with racism, hatred, ignorance and racial inequality needed to be extinguished and only a special person with the skills and patience of Dr. King could have steered these things the right way. I am sad to say that there will always be class, religious and racial differences in our country (and most every country throughout the world) but things have come a long way here since I was born. There have been many people, in addition to, Dr. King, who have pushed and still do push the consciousness of the world to being better.I am afraid we will never all get along though. Believe it or not there are people who do not like you and I know many people who do not like me; we just have to allow them not to like us. I also know there are people who even read this blog who do not like me and sometimes use the thoughts that I express here against me. I am not trying to compare myself to Dr. King because, there is no comparison, but we all just need to be more MLK-like sometimes. I remember standing in the exact spot where he gave his "I Have a Dream" speech in Washington D.C. and it gave me chills.

Words I had written a long time ago that really apply to Dr. King - "No matter how awesome you are you will always have enemies and detractors." I may have seen them or heard them and accidentally stolen them but I think that I made the saying up myself but I am happy to give credit to whoever says they said it.

I forgot to thank Dr. King for allowing me to get some more COMP hours back tonight as his birthday is a holiday I work.

Last week almost all of the premium movie channels were free from DirecTV here. It bothered me a little bit to discover that there is a network called Encore Black. I liked a lot of the movies on the station but felt like I was not supposed to watch the station. I watched anyway because, even though it may be a little naughty sometimes, I pretty much push boundaries quite a bit. I think that if there were an Encore White I would be more offended. Why is that? Maybe it is just that I know that we are not the colors of our skins and we could come together a lot better if people, and networks..., weren't trying to keep us separate. There is a lot of money in making people not get along I think. I just looked it up and Encore Black was Encore Drama until 2013 when the name was changed. There is also Encore Espanol but that seems to make more sense to me as it is based on a different language rather than the colors of our skin. Maybe the stations are based-on cultural difference but then they need to reconsider the name of the network.

Fabio will be 18 years old in three days. It is so funny how we are so excited to be 18 when we are 17 and then we soon find out that it was easier not to be over 18. Maybe it is just that the grass is always greener on the other side but life was so much easier when we were 17. I have not been 17 for a long time and maybe it is harder to be 17 now than it was 30-some odd years ago. One of the reasons that he was looking forward to being 18 is that he will be able to do more things at his part-time job when he is of legal prosecution age. He works at a local supermarket very close to our home and the only jobs he can do under 17-years-of-age are gathering shopping carts in the parking lot and bringing them back into the store and bagging our groceries. The other day he asked one of the managers if he could be considered to move to the deli once he turns 18 and now he only has one more week of carts and bagging and he begins training for the deli next week. Now he will get to wear a red chef jacket to work. He is very excited. Remember when we used to get excited about things like that just to find out that that new job sucked just as much as the last one? At least now he will be inside all of the time and not have to deal with the elements of getting carts come rain or blizzard or shine.The job at the grocery store has helped him a great deal. He is a very quiet guy (no, he is not adopted) and getting paid to talk to people has made him quite a bit more sociable. Now that I know there is a bagger/cart boy job opening maybe I should apply? Seriously though, if you or someone are looking for a job like this maybe this is insider information?

I do not remember being crabby very often when I was 18!

Thanks to you I am not quite as of much of a Crabby Matty as I was when I started writing. I know I have said it many times but this really is therapy for me. Thank you for allowing me to get out of my funk today. Only seven hours until work - blah. Have a great rest Monday and Monnight. TTTT...MITM (out) TA!